Beginning All Over

I will defeat my demons.

Lets be honest here - my whole life I have been hiding the truth about my addiction to food. It began as a way to feel comfort, then it became a way to get rid of a lunatic husband it is hard to admit to this day. But it worked and I did get out of a long abusive marriage.

In the mean time I am ruining my health but I managed to lose 120 lbs at one point and I was thrilled and could shop in the normal store but that didn't last long. My addiction the way to hide from pain is always struggling to get out - that ugly monster.

I now need to lose 55 lbs and I am baring my soul because it will force me to see the truth and do something about it. It is so embarrassing but as long as I feel shame I will never be able to tame the monster.

Today is the day and I hope you can walk this journey along with me, especially if you are in the situation I am in. Need to lose weight and be healthy to live a full satisfying life.