Wednesday, April 1, 2015

No More Dieting - Are You Kidding?

I have decided to stop dieting. I read the book Intuitive Eating and have decided not to ever diet again.

I am terrified and excited at the same time. Doing this I feel I will get my life back.

The main rules are:
  • Enjoy what you are eating – stop when it doesn’t taste good anymore.
  • Eat when you are hungry
  • Enjoy a variety of foods
  • Slow down and stop when you are full.
  • Enjoy your food – eat deliberately. No mindless eating
  • Do not multi-task sit down at a table and eat with purpose.
  • Stop weighing yourself…
My happiness depended on how much I weighed – when I lost I was excited, when I gained I felt like the world would end grumpy and stressed.

Here goes – I will keep you posted… I don’t want to gain so I am a little nervous. I will keep you posted.  Fingers crossed ---

If you want the book you can buy it here Intuitive Eating .

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

This is me on the inside... Outside Not
So Much!
OK so I have been away for a while, but you will be glad to know I have kept what little I lost off. I am surprised myself. It is so hard to stay on track when there are so many parties.

My diet buddy Jeanelle joined a group online one pays $30.00 fee, and everything goes in a pot. Those that lose 4% of their body weight in four weeks get to share the pot! Great motivation so I joined today.

They are really sticklers about taking a full body shot – with a card with a word of the day and then a shot of your feet with the weight on the scale. It would be virtually impossible to cheat that is a good thing.  With this type of accountability, I will be better – I am pretty competitive so watch out world!

Friday, June 20, 2014

What is this About! I am my own worst enemy...

Binging – really! Here I am thinking I am so in control - I am struggling a bit, but my mind is set right and
then… I start eating and have not stopped for three days. Now what is this about???

I’m afraid of letting go of the extra weight and why. It is so self-sabotaging after doing so well. I just need to stop thinking like that and jump back on the horse and ride.

Now I am tired and depressed; I am sure my blood sugar is high, which has been normal for weeks is spiking out of control. I am going to kick myself in the rear – good hell woman gets with it!!

It's the same-old story that drinkers use - well I am going to get sober tomorrow so I'd better drink all I can tonight. That is right I am back depriving myself tomorrow what else do I want? I know I will run to the store! Buy whatever I like - I am not hungry but what the heck.. 

Another thing why do I use words like deprive - that is defeating in itself.... Ugh.  

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Self - Acceptance

One of the hardest things to do is accept yourself for who you are. Most of us feel like there is something wrong with us. We are to fat or we are too tall etc.

I believe in order to be able to enjoy life and make changes you have to accept yourself the way you are. Cherish what you have and who you have become. There is always room for improvement but there is no one on earth like you so this makes you one of a kind.

I believe I have started accepting myself for who I am. I am still on this journey to get fit but I can actually stand in front of the mirror naked and not feel like looking away, tearing myself apart limb by limb. When is use to get a glimpse of myself in the mirror I would think “ I look disgusting why did I do this to myself” or “I am never going to lose this weight” I would then feel self-defeated start eating things that I didn’t even enjoy just to distract myself from the pain.

I am happy to report I am getting better – in self-acceptance. Confidence is attractive.
I ran across this video on Google+ and had to share it.

These ladies didn't let their weight stop them from enjoying life why should I?

Thursday, June 12, 2014

That is the Killer Right There - INCONSISTENCY

I just hate having to do the same thing everyday, and that is what is going to kill me in the end!

I have been trucking along doing what I know I need to do - a little hungry, but like my grandma use to say - if you are not a little hungry the weight won't come off. I don't know if I agree, but I really want to get to a weight I enjoy. Better health, fit in clothes off the rack - and to be honest the sex is much more enjoyable.


As of last week, I have lost 10 lbs - not too bad. Especially since I eat basically what I want on the weekends and strictly diet on the week days.

This last weekend - I just couldn't get back on my eating plan. I am today - but it is Wednesday, so I have lost a few days. I am really having a hard time - it is always hard the first few days.

What this means is I need to diet everyday except once a month, or I need to get better about getting back on the horse. We will see how my weight goes this week - I may not weight until Monday not sure. I am so hungry right now I could eat my hat (an old saying LOL).

That is because I came to work unprepared. That is another thing if you don't prepare to don't be surprised if you fall off the wagon... Plus I need to get my mind back in the place it was last week....

Monday, May 19, 2014

Starting My Plan

Last week, I decided to follow Niall’s Dr. approved diet without the diet pills. I know it will be very tough since diet pills help control your appetite. I know from previous experience that going on a low/no carb diet helps stop hunger so through the weekend Friday – Sunday; I ate a (Atkins Phase One) low-carb diet and didn't count the calories.

It is now Monday, and I am starting the 500 calories a day for a week. The instructions are that I have to eat these calories in meat only – which mean very little food since meat has a lot of calories.

It seems a  extreme, but  I am going to do it for 7 days. Since my blood sugar has been dropping so much I decided I would stop taking my Glucophage in the morning – guess what I forgot today and my blood sugar dropped to 70, I ate the chicken breast that was planned for lunch. We will see if it works if not I may have to eat something with carbs – I hope not I have gotten off to a great start…

It should be exciting to see how this goes – I am going to modify it after the seven day, and hopefully I can get my body to be a fat-burning machine!!

My goal is 50lbs; I will keep you informed about the ups and downs.

If this is my answer, it may be yours so keep watching to see if it is a success or failure and what pot-holes I may come across....

Until Next Time !!!

Thursday, May 15, 2014

Emotional Eating

Well, my birthday was a grand feast, and I do not feel the least bit guilty (well maybe a little) went out to one of my favorite restaurants I forgot how delicious the food is.

I am changing little by little when it comes to my relationship with food. It used to be I would be feeling bad so I would eat something that comforted me, and I would feel better for a while. It had somewhat of a lasting
affect – and then of course I would look in the mirror and be upset.

Now when I get emotional and eat comfort food –it feels like an empty hole. I feel like unless I find out why I need to self-medicate I will just eat myself to death. I realize no amount of food is going to satisfy my hunger for what has hurt me or is missing in my life.

Hmm I think if I can figure that out it would be a lot easier to move on to a healthier life.
My best guess at this point? I don’t accept myself for who I am and I need to stop that type of thinking, my weight is like a heavy anchor around my neck. I feel embarrassed for letting myself get so out of shape.

I am not superficial with anyone else – I don’t judge someone by looks or any other physical trait. Why do I beat myself up?

That is the one million-dollar question.